it wouldnt be a happy bdae till the one u love most in ur life wishes u. so... has it been a happy bdae? not so far.

but even so, i am so thankful to all those hu wished me. u guys are the greatest!

dear mom. please dun have tt muker masam today. if i did sumthng wrong, im sorry. if anybody else did sumthng wrong, im sorry on behalf. please, its my bdae. my wish is for everyone to be happy. ok? i wanna be happy too. please, i cried after seeing u have tt look. i cried behind closed doors. diden want u to see. but im hurt.

and im hurt tt the person i love the most haven wished me. she told me she wont forget it when i wished her happy bdae. but now? see lah. hurt. my wish is for her to remember. another shattered wish it is.

i can only lie on the fun i had during the party last week and the wishes i got from my dear frens. and tt i had a fun time cramping inside one car wif 6 other ppl to go to queensway. with those crazy flrbl frens of mine. making noise in the car, acting cool niggers rocking our head to music when ppl are walking past. yea. its been fun.

thats all.


*senyuman lebar*

today has been gerek. farhan and fit brought me to changi beach where i got a surprise. fahmy, shida, wani, fatin, raudah and hidayah were there. they surprised me wif a cake! we're celebrating my birthday! in advance, but waddehell! damn i felt so touched i went emo and my eyes became watery. u guys are the best man. thank you thank you. dis meant so much to me. i feel so lorveddd~. lorved like never before. lol. Love You All! but heyy. hate the tepung and cake throwing k. but fun tho. and thrown into the laut? damn. nice~. but i came out coughing like an old man. lucky it diden continue on. so its all been great. u guys shldnt have gone through all the trouble, but hey! since u guys did it. Thank You! Thank You! Thank You! feel like ive made a difference in ur lives. i hope i did. cos u guys surely do. sheesh my eyes are watery even when typing this. im so emotional.

FRENS FOREVER~!



wells... i think she'll be ok now. hopefully she and her bf work things out. may they be happy together always. since dey'll be fine, i thnk its best i leave. not advisable for me to be part of their life. hahah. i might make thngs go bad. if u noe wad i mean. so goodbye dear fren. *sob sob*
i.love.you.


wah dua sabtu berturut-turut aku jumper dgn usop and fuad. kalau diorg dua berjumpa, mesti jadi giler punya. kitorg ketawa non-stop. takle tahan. so mungkin kami bertiga akan berjumper regularly sebab usop skarang telah di-influence utk bergitar.

A NEW GUITARIST IS BORN! USOP 'VAN HALEN' SONTOLOYO!!

BEWARE~

anywaaaayyy... i need to shop. really. but i have not enuff money. i dun wanna let my bank account go below 500. now its close to below 500. scared. so i dunno how. HOW?!!


i may not be able to hold on longer. life's pretty bad. but i shall make it look as tho its great tho. and try my best to make others' life beautiful. and i also will try my best to make mine beautiful too. but its not close to beautiful. each and everyday i hurt myself. not physically but emotionally. and all this is making my brain so cramp tt all i can do is sleep. when im not asleep, i'll probably be dizzy. anyway i realised tt i hv somewhat matured. ive realised how patient i am. when my parents marah or bising, i dun shout back. i just swallow any anger or wadsoever. its not tt i dun get angry, i do. but i dont show it. im afraid of showing it. like wad happened b4 when i got angry and silenced everyone. i dun like it. i scare myself. so wadever. i was saying tt life is bad. i see someone almost everyday, listen to her problems on life and bf and other thngs. listen and listen i just do. but my heart inside is battling to stay unbroken. and wad abt nsh? where has she gone? it hurts tt she just left. it hurts so much, i think my chest pain might kill me. i escaped death once, can i escape again? emotional i am.


I tried to discover a little something to make me sweeter
Oh baby refrain from breaking my heart
I'm so in love with you
I'll be forever blue
That you give me no reason, you know you're making me work so hard
That you give me no... Soul
I hear you calling
Oh baby please give a little respect to me.

And if I should falter, would you open your arms out to me?
We can make love not war, and live in peace with our hearts
I'm so in love with you,
I'll be forever blue
What religion or reason could drive a man to forsake his lover?
Don't you tell me no... Soul.
I hear you calling
Oh baby please, give a little respect to me.





i cant help but feel guilty. wad if a friend's heart i broke. wad if wad if? cos hurt people i must not. if i do, ppl might hurt me in the future. u get wad u give. tt i believe. so wad if, wad if u had to choose between friendship and love? which way wld u go? and what if u had to chose between love and love? wad wld u do? sad i am. make me feel guilty my fren always does. with words he said. im afraid i might have hurt him. wad a fren i am? haishh~


sorry i am, but say something i should.
if hurt u he does, den leave him u must. no use to hold on it is. if afraid u are, stand by u i will. for a jedi i am. tot by yoda i was. wise man he is, look up to him i do. protect u i will. defeat evil we must. together we shall.


Hello everyone.

Wad do i wish to say?

This week is CCA wk. Booths of the various cca's are set up in the SP sports hall. Its fun, go there every free time, see freshies, get them to join floorball. So i got usop to join. And i tell u, lots of temasekians are joining floorball. Woots~! So for first day, get dis.. 90+ names collected. 2nd day, 1page full of names. Yeah yeah! i tell u, its gonna be a crowd. but surely slowly ppl will stop coming for trngs. eventually disappear. ouh yarh. alot of ppl hu went to the mls camp is joining flrbl. so flrbl is gonna be the 2nd mls. even the mls booth is next to the flrbl booth, seperated by some christian grp thing. so yea. tmr gonna go the booth again. yippee.

To end,

A wise man once told me. "Do or Do Not, There is No Try."

So Goodbye.